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In fond memory of the Bravest Man I ever knew.


Snape: So when the time comes, the boy must die?

Albus: Yes… Yes… He must die.

Snape: You’ve kept him alive so that he can die at the proper moment. You’ve been raising him like a pig for slaughter! But.. it’s her son!

Albus: Don’t tell me now that you’ve grown to care for the boy.

[Snape casts a Patronus in the shape of a doe, just like Lily’s]

Albus: Lily… After all this time?

Snape: Always.


It was Pongal. So, vacation time!

I was walking towards my platform at the Secunderabad Station eagerly waiting for the Pongal holidays. The station was so packed that I did not even have to make an effort to walk. I was looking for a hotel, above all those scampering heads, to buy my dinner. I got my parcel and got out of the hotel, when I just happened to give Harry Potter a little thought on re-reading.

I was thinking, “Poor Snape. How he risked his entire life for Harry’s safety from the Dark Lord despite being one of the most loyal servants of Voldemort..” since that was one of the most significant events that refused to leave my mind.

By then, my phone was crying for its hourly food of charge when I came to know the shocking and unexpected news about Alan Rickman.

Severus Snape is a fictional character in the Harry Potter Series, played so eloquently and convincingly by British Actor, Alan Rickman. J.K.Rowling personally handpicked Alan for the role, from her own reference of a teacher she disliked in her childhood, who taught her Chemistry and Snape taught Potions at Hogwarts. She described Snape as “a horrible teacher and the worst thing a teacher can do to his students is bully them”. Snape was actually named after the village Snape, Suffolk.

Ever since the books and movies came out, I had always considered Snape as the real hero, who fought against all odds to protect Harry from all kinds of danger, including from his own master, Voldemort.

The minute I heard the news of Alan’s passing, I sat there on a seat in the platform, wondering what in the world just happened. Tears welled up in my eyes and since my phone was also dead now, I couldn’t talk with my fellow HP fanatics about this incident. Just before my phone died, I pinged one of my friends, “Hey Alan Rickman died!” She was shocked to the bone as I was. Although Alan had acted in many other movies (which I had never seen), his portrayal as Snape in the movies and JKR’s depiction of him in the books were beyond perfection.

Snape’s true loyalty was one of the most significant questions in the series up until the last installment and his fierce love and devotion to Harry’s mother, Lily, was the foundation of that loyalty. Although he is depicted as being cold, harsh, painfully precise, sarcastic, bitter and always condescending Harry and his father, James, an another side of him showed him as deeply secretive, powerful, self-assured, confident, authoritative, full of himself and rarely at a loss for words or taken off guard which personally, is a type of character I admire in a person. He displayed the always-prepared stature, a very calm and a collected demeanor, however his temper always is short and gets the best of him when it concerns Harry and the owners of the Marauders Map.

Like other prominent members of Slytherin who are wicked, intelligent and cunning, Snape also exuded the same qualities but according to Rowling and me, he was one of the bravest and kind-hearted men ever.


No one could have loved Lily, as Snape had.

No one could have protected Harry because he was Lily’s son, by endangering his own life and memories, as Snape had.

No one could have felt more remorse while he killed Dumbledore the way Snape felt it.

You will be remembered ever so fondly, Alan.

Snape will live long, forever.

alan rickman

Harry: Hermione, give me a flask. Anything.

[She reaches into her bag and produces a flask, which Harry uses to collect the memory tears running down Snape’s cheek. He clutches the bottle in his hand then again tries to staunch Snape’s wound.]

Snape: Take them… Take them to the Pensieve… and look at me.

Snape: You have your mother’s eyes.

[A confused look crosses Harry’s face as Snape breathed his last.]


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The Unforgettable 4 years…

This is my first post about my college life. So it will go on for a while but i’ll try my level best to keep u interested… 🙂

I still remember my first in college. The funniest moment in my life. Just like all 12th passed-out students, I had great great expectations that my college life was going to be amaaziing.. Awesome-green campus, beautiful architecture of buildings, cool buses, big canteen with yummy food, pretty gals with lovely new dresses (minimum 50 to max 100 will be required) 😛 that they might have bought especially for college life (repetition strictly not allowed), and guys zooming across on their bikes to.. uhmm.. impress girls?! Obviously 😛 HAHA just kidding ! 🙂 Anyway, I DID have those expectations but it never was like what I have mentioned above. But it was fun though..

First day : Our new college bus was packed with freshers and their parents with anxious faces about how the college was going to be. But I sensed none of those similar feelings on the students’ faces. Not in the bus. Inside the college, Definitely YES ! Lemme get to that shortly.. So the Orientation day was over with great “inspirational speeches” by few famous heads.. (I still don’t know who they are. I probably never will !) and we had great food that made my happiness linger till I got home that evening.

Second day : There’s a saying “Good things does not last long”. I had the same feeling. Me and my friend entered my college, heaving our bags full of books needed for that semester ( childish right ? :P) and marched straight into the canteen without having a care in the world as to where our classroom might be. We dint even care to make friends or to even recognize the faces we saw on the orientation day. We had 2 dosas each and a soft drink and the next few minutes, we spent on “gazing” at the beauty of my college “campus”.

There was one building and we thought there would be more somewhere close by. And that’s where we were so wrong. There was just dry land as far as my eyes could see. It was hot that day yet we tried looking for “the campus” but we just couldn’t find any.! Just that one building with few trees growing nearby.. rest all was sand.. just sand !

Third day till date : The classroom was filled with chitter-chatters. Complete with girls and boys I was then completely a stranger to. We both filled the 4th bench in the middle row. We were spanked by a row full of other girls on our left and two rows full of boys on our right. That moment, I have to say, was truly awesome.! I thought,”WOW, I’m a college girl. I’m actually going to be a typical college material ” We chattered on about our orientation day experience, shared our names and phone numbers and I actually took a very long time to register the names and faces. I dint know my own classmates’ names thoroughly until I came to the 2nd yr 4th semester. ( especially the boys). Introductions of our names and our whereabouts were made to all the teachers that came in. I was excited. I really looked forward to how my college was gonna treat me. It treated me well. Really well !

Keeping aside the pleasantaries, our classes started much to our despise. I thought I had to study hard only till my 12th to get a good college and I was wrong again. The subjects they took were completely greek and latin and I take about the entire semester to get the names of the subjects I read, right. I still don’t remember the subject names let alone what I studied.

Leave academics. LIFE : I learnt a hell lot otherwise. Right from the beginning of my college life, I had a few rough patches with one of my friends whom I was (still am) really possessive on. That incident completely changed my life. My life took a rather unnatural, unintended and yes, unexpected turn that I learnt to live with now. I am going to be 22 now and I am actually able to handle big changes in life however hard its gonna hit me but back then, 4 yrs ago, I was just turning 18. I dint know what to do and what not to do and how to handle things and people. And so that incident struck hard into my delicate heart which really is tough to forget about.

FRIENDS : Probably the best I could ever get. As a kid, I never mingle freely with people. I look at someone new, automatically I take a step or two backwards – both physically and emotionally. But with these friends, I was myself around them. I felt completely different. At school, I used to roam with just a handful of friends. I was not used to being with “gang friends” but I came into one eventually. And I loved that ONE GANG. We didn’t keep any gang name but I call it “OUR GANG” .We had fun TO THE CORE I can say, with them and with the rest of the girls and soon we became ONE.

I still remember one day where I was caught red-handed with a spoon of fried rice in my mouth by my DPSD mam. The moment she turned her eyes away from me, I gobbled up that lump making me unable to even smile at the friend making fun of me next to me. 😛 That was fun. And the time we were shifted to the green building with full A/C and the fun we had playing hide and seek during lunch time. And yes! Culturals and sports day. How did I miss that!

The highlight of our college life was these culturals and sports day events taking place every even semester. I sung solo songs and group songs every cultural and we had ultimate fun. We used to decide what dress to wear and what matching accessories we could use. We had our first batch of seniors then so our fun was immeasurable. Yes. We were only two batches of students when I was in 1st yr so there was nobody to stop us ! We used to whistle and scream hard during dance shows and we used to get free grape juice every sports day. A combo of sweet and a samosa would be given to us on culturals too!


And the trips I should speak of. Those IV’s we went for to Pondicherry, ISRO etc was terrific fun. Especially inside the bus! The class dances we have during lunch breaks. We also gave Gangnam style a try and it came out fantabulous. I still remember the day – April 11,2013. Those lab hour chats, corridor fun ( I remember one day tripping over a non-dust rubber and falling head-first on the mosaic floor in the green building. the GRUDGE EFFECT CORRIDOR as I often call it 😛 ) Our occasional, most of the time, regretful visits to the main campus for training classes for placements. Those walks on the newly-paved footpath to and fro buildings (now 3 in number :D) where I often trip and fall down. The recent trip to beach and city center mall with my classmates is worth remembering till the very end. Those sleepy seminars we had in the conference hall. Those fan-fighting moments I had with my friends. YES! I was made the fan operator and I never got air whatsoever. Ironic isn’t it ?! Those endless photo sessions we used to have both during class and during outings. That MGM trip I had with my gang of friends. We also saw a movie EPIC-3D with friends and that was pure fun. I could go on guys cuz its college life…! Ok Fine. Not to mention semester days. I dont really remember study days because I hardly ever study. And those after-effect days of results of our exams. I hate that feeling. Just hate it. But everything was worth it till the end…

And now.. today..

We started experiencing rifts among us friends. People started fighting for silly things. Ego was at its peak. First, it was the seniors farewell. It really was a tearful one because I still feel we had THE BEST seniors EVER any juniors could get. So helpful and so fun filled and yes.. some of us who literally attached some of their feeling to seniors, had a tough time letting go of them. And that was when our so-long-divided-class got re-united. I can say that was THE BEST MOMENT in my college life. Unforgettable. Then the juniors came but I couldnt see the fun any longer. No offense to anyone but I just couldnt.

Post exams and placements, we started giving out emotional speeches in our class as to where we would see ourselves in the next 5 years. That was so not good. I couldnt bear to see the people I love the most leave permanently. I hated that void feeling that creeps inside me when I miss a person so badly. I knew this day would come and that is why I wasn’t too attached to my friends. Once I did, they will surely leave me at some point or the other. This change is eventual, I knew, but I didn’t want to take it into my heart. I couldn’t handle it.


But that day came too…


I went to college today only to find one of my friends leaving to her native. I knew. That moment was forever. She introduced us to her parents and her relatives and that they were leaving that afternoon. Friends around me started saying, “Keep in touch ya. Dont forget us” and the like. But I didn’t know what to say. I suck at expressing feelings so I just stood there doing nothing but to just see her wave us goodbye. Then I knew the moment had come.. the moment I dreaded! Parting ways… I’m not going to write beyond this..

Those 4 yrs.. those yrs that I would never ever get again in my life.. had ended. I regret I didn’t make the best out of it but I’m happy for what it all taught me. Both inside and outside the campus. With friends both inside and outside campus. Yes. I’m happy for how the college has made me what I am today. Yes. I’m happy for all the memories it created for me – good and bad and the WORST. Yes. I’m happy extremely for all the life lessons that I have learnt so far and now.. It has made me ready for the lessons I will be learning in the near and distant future…

And now I’m talking to u my friends.. my college and classmates.. and all other mates out there !! U people better keep in touch.

And with all these mixed feelings, I sign off!


Cheers guys 🙂


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